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Bud announces that the family is going back to Jordan and then leaves to set things up there; meanwhile, the rest of the family sells the house, sends their belongings ahead, and says goodbye. Diana has settled back into America and now, at the age of 12, reflects: “That fiery reentry comes back to me, the memory of having to re-create myself at seven, at nine, and now again” (135). The friends she has fought to make at school give her an emotional send-off. Diana is silent in response to her father’s encouragement that she will meet her Jordanian friends again and eat fresh bread. The recipe for “Lost Childhood Pita Bread” follows his exhortations (136). As the date of departure gets close, Diana shuts down physically and emotionally, dreading the move and desperate to stay with Mrs. Manarelli. Two days before they are due to leave, a telegram from Bud announces, “SENDING BACK TICKETS COMING HOME” (138). Diana is immensely relieved.
The family finds temporary accommodation in an arty bohemian house; Diana loves the décor, but Bud cannot easily cook. They drive around the suburbs endlessly, looking for a new home. Diana feels rootless, having no school or house; her parents do not have work. Finally, Bud drives them to Euclid, New York, where there is a remote house in the countryside. Diana feels isolated and depressed. The chapter ends with the recipe for “Subsistence Tabbouleh—For when everything is falling apart and there is no time to cook” (143).
Diana is so frustrated and lonely that she walks out of the house one day, followed by her sisters. They walk down the road with no particular plan but are soon tracked by Bud in his car. He entices first Monica and then Suzy back home by telling them he is preparing their favorite dishes. Diana hides in the bushes when Bud comes looking for her, feeling a mixture of dread and relief as she reveals herself after Bud calls to her.
The family invites relatives over every weekend, as there is no other entertainment. Bud cooks elaborate meals, the women drink cocktails, and the men discuss politics; Diana provides the recipe for “‘Lounging with the Ladies’ Grasshoppers” (148). Some of the children explore the surrounding countryside, and one day Diana and two cousins enter a huge cement pipe, where Diana feels a sense of freedom from her old life. Their disappearance from view causes Gram concern as she calls for them to come in for dinner. Touching something furry in the dark of the tunnel, Diana’s fear takes over and the children run out: “We are running back, into ourselves, into light, to dinner, to what is known” (151). The chapter ends with the recipe for “Magical Muhammara” (152).
Diana relates some of the many long and apocryphal stories that Bud loved to tell the family. They cover, amongst many topics, his parents’ meeting, his father’s fierce and generous personality, Bud’s wild and rebellious childhood, and his employment by the king of Jordan, where he met his dear friend Mo Kadeem, with whom he has now lost contact. The two young men worked on preparing the dish mjeddrah for the king, the recipe for which comes at the end of the chapter: “Bud’s Royal Mjeddrah” (159). These larger-than-life accounts delight and entertain Diana and her sisters, bringing them closer to their father. At the same time the stories impart moral guidance—for example, how to be a “good girl” and a responsible child. They also transmit “a full overview on [Bud’s] life plan for himself and for [his children]” (156), which includes opening a restaurant and becoming a doting grandfather to many offspring, born of his daughters and their second cousins.
Diana describes two groups of high school classmates: the immigrant children, whose names the teachers cannot pronounce and who bring fragrant exotic dishes in their lunch boxes; and the American girls, who are all on diets and obsessed with being skinny. Diana describes the father of one of her friends, Olga Basilovich, as “an elderly, gentle, diminutive man from Russia” (161). She learns from Olga how he escaped concentration camps and walked across Europe, eventually finding his way to America. Scientific and intellectual, he nonetheless suffers from terrible depression and has attempted suicide. His only joyful experience while Diana knows him is eating Bud’s lamb-stuffed cabbage rolls, which lead him into poetic rapture. He makes them himself for Diana to try, but soon after he goes into a deep depression and is hospitalized. He finally dies by suicide, jumping out of the hospital window. On the day of his funeral, a pigeon approaches Diana and looks at her. Some years later she learns that the Russian word for stuffed cabbages is “golubsti,” or “pigeon.” Diana ends the chapter with the recipe for “‘In Honor of Mr. Basilovich’ Cabbage Rolls” (167).
Bud is back to his old lively self. He is about to buy a restaurant of his own, a lifelong ambition that has never happened despite several false starts. He and Diana dine at the only other Arab restaurant, which will compete with Bud’s; they try the falafels and plan to poach the waiter, who is an engineering student. The recipe for “Very Fried Falafels” follows (171). Bud wants Diana to serve at his restaurant, and she is excited to plan her uniform. The younger girls will work in the kitchen. The family continues planning for months, with investors recruited and menus created. On the day of the planned signing, Bud and Mom are gone long into the night; eventually Bud returns and goes straight to bed. The plan has fallen through due to the previous owner’s retraction. The following recipe is for “Perfectly Tender Bamia” (176), one of the secret recipes Bud had up his sleeve for his new venture.
Preteen Diana is maturing and slowly starting to grow away from her family—especially from her father’s influence. The natural process of becoming independent is beginning, but her questions about Chosen and Unchosen Identities and The Places, People, and Feelings that Constitute Home are exacerbated by the prospect of having to go back to Jordan and reinvent herself again, as well as by the rootlessness she experiences when the family finds itself with no fixed home, school, or work.
At the age of 12, Diana feels she has constructed her own identity and does not want to lose it: “I’m twelve, I have friends, clothes, opinions. And my opinion is: I don’t want to move to Jordan” (135). She has deliberately worked on making herself “American”: wearing the right clothes, having the right hairstyle, etc. Her memories of Jordan are fading and only reappear in dreams: “I’ve lost my sense of Jordan. If we move back there, I don’t know what I’ll be any longer” (136). Her sullen mood clashes with that of her father, whose need to return to Jordan is urgent: “My father’s longing for Jordan is at the center of his identity” (137). His reasons for moving back include what he believes to be his daughters’ well-being. Diana’s mother shows her typical resignation and calm at the notion of the move.
Diana’s complex feelings about the move include guilt: “I believe that if only I had willed myself more fully Arab in America, all this dislocation could have been averted” (138). Diana is not as sure of who she is as her remark about having her own style and beliefs suggest, and now her world and self-image are being turned upside down again. The comparison of the immigrant girls and their foods to the “American” girls and their diets is another example of Diana’s shifting loyalties and identifications. While she has tried her best to be “American,” her stomach remains Jordanian; food is too integral to who she is and what she values to abandon for a trendy diet. Each recipe in this section of the book reflects one of the tumultuous events or emotions that Diana lives through as her developing adolescent persona struggles with the demands and restrictions of her life.
Despite being relieved at the reversal of the decision to move to Jordan, Diana is left adrift when the family temporarily have no fixed abode. Their final choice of home, isolated in the countryside, then leads to her feeling cut off from the social life teenagers need. In her opinion, every decision her father makes about her life at this point is wrong, and she shows him this by rebelling. Walking out of the home with her sisters is a major act of defiance, although she is somewhat relieved to be found. A similar scene occurs when she and her cousins enter the cement pipe in an act of bravado, only to be happy when they are called home. Diana is only starting to build an identity independent of her family.
Diana’s father contrasts dramatically with Olga’s father, Mr. Basilovich. His story affects Diana greatly, as its inclusion in the memoir demonstrates. Bud’s stories of his homeland are lively and passionate, full of joy and daring, while the story that Diana hears about Mr. Basilovich is tragic and dark. The only factor uniting the two men is their shared love of cabbage rolls, underscoring the importance of food and its effect on people and their emotions and behavior.
However, Bud is not without his own sadness; like Diana, he struggles to find his place in the world. His return from Jordan seems to signal a definitive end to his romanticization of his childhood home. Diana notices that he seems to have aged and matured since he returned: “[T]he long serious slant of his jaw has surfaced” (140). She even comments, “I start to flinch at his touch” (140)—another indication of their becoming detached and distant from each other. His childlike enthusiasm remains, however, in his restauranteur ambition, making his disappointment all the greater when his hopes are once again dashed. Notably, the chapter is entitled “Restaurant of Our Dreams,” showing that despite the emergence of superficial differences, Diana and her father and family are still very close and that the key factor that unites them is food.